fauthist:

Dear ex lover, I don’t know if I’ll ever get over you. But then, if anyone would ask me if I’m still broken because you shattered my heart into a million pieces, I’d probably say no. I would say no because I know you aren’t a part of my life anymore, you aren’t the one I’d give anything for anymore because it would mean that I’ve got nothing left for myself. Maybe I’m egoistic. Call me an egoist. But I miss the person I used to be. It’s true, before I met you, I didn’t know that I’d be able to smile for no reason. I didn’t know what it was like to feel save, like I’m home. I didn’t know that I could feel homesick and that the homesickness is because of you. But when you left me, all the bad things came back all at once and I can’t describe the feeling in my chest I felt back then. But yes, I’m not broken anymore. You showed me all the beautiful things in life. It’s true, I can’t go to the supermarket you took me in to show me all the things you liked, I can’t go to that restaurant you took me and hell no, I can’t listen to your favorite song because I’d miss the smile you used to have when you listened to it. I still search for you in everyone I meet, I search for your smell in other persons. But it doesn’t mean I’m still broken. I just miss the person I used to be when I was with you. Because you showed me all the beautiful things in life. I know now that there’s so much more to live for, so much to experience and I learned about life that it goes on. You either win or you learn. Thank you for teaching me so many things. Thank you for the time we spent together. Maybe you win because I’m the one who learned, but I’m not broken anymore. I just needed to fall to learn how to get up again.